Today felt like a gut punch.
This may seem like a wall that needs painting to most but it is so much more than that. This wall was covered a very short time ago. There were motivational posters, encouraging statements, and my father’s dream board. It said things like “replace Jocelyn’s rings”, “take Jocelyn to Hawaii”, “Jocelyn retire”, etc. He had a handful of things on his list. Most of them were for Mom. He only managed to complete two of the wishes on his dream board. He left them on his board with notes stating they were accomplished. Removing his dreams was hard.
This dirty carpet is the now empty room that housed the bedroom furniture Dad used as a little boy for the last 16 years. It was all donated. Some family that otherwise cannot afford furniture hopefully will get use out of it. It wasn’t just this that was donated. All the Christmas, Halloween, and Easter decorations, the bedroom furniture my parents had their entire marriage, their office furniture, even their dishes have been donated. Their entire house feels empty.
Wedding day! 
Family photos in the 1980s 
25th wedding anniversary
It feels like I threw Dad away today.
I am so sorry Daddy. I miss you. I love you. I didn’t mean to throw you away.
Oily Minded Medic 
❤️❤️❤️
I loved seeing the pictures of your dad when he was little. He didn’t change much. I mean you look at pictures of some people but you sometimes don’t see the person in them.
And it was cool to hear about his dream wall. Such an awesome idea! He adored your mom. And you and Tracy he loved you guys with all of his heart ❣️
I can’t even imagine how hard all of this has been on you… And your mom. I hope she’s finding her way through this. My heart aches for you both.
So much love to you both. ❤️❤️
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Thank you Shawn. We are slowly but surely finding our new normal. I’m just glad someone else can get use out of everything he left behind.
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